I know that being in my last year of school I have to concentrate on my school work and get it done well.
And I know that in order to do that I have to look after myself.
It's commonly understood that without food the brain doesn't function well.
But this fact gets ignored when you don't want to eat.
I know it, it's a fact, I understand how my brain would be laggy and tired and not want to work when I'm not giving it anything. But I simply can't bring myself to eat.
I have come up with all sorts of stupid thoughts to justify not eating, i.e. I don't feel stupid etc.
I also have this stupid thought that because I don't feel hungry my body doesn't need it. I know I am hungry but I don't want to be so my brain is hiding my hunger pains from me. I also know I trick my brain by saying "I feel sick" when I get unquestionable hunger pains.
I understand exactly what is going on, but I just can't help it.