I just want to be loved.
I had a horrendous upbringing that left me begging for attention from my totally preoccupied mother and now I'm left unable to really care for myself. I would love to buy proper groceries and make real dinners, but I just don't find myself as worth it. I'd much rather do these things for someone else, and this is the only time I really do it.
I only buy breakfast and snacks for myself as far as groceries go.
I don't eat dinner, so I sure as fuck don't cook for myself even though I absolutely could if I had such inclination.
Yet there is one person in particular I want to do these things for, and a group of people I would do it for.
I essentially see these people as better than me and more deserving of basic necessities like food, care and affection.
But these are all things that I would love to give myself but need them to return to me, seeing as I can't do it for myself.
So, to these people who will probably never read this, I actually love you.
And as we know, if you ever need anything, I will 1000% be there to help.
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